Ugh, so what is new? Well Alex came for me on Tuesday night and I have been in McFarland all week, I go back on Tuesday.


Thanksgiving was okay, that was the day I was suppose to go back home but then things happened.

His sister Esme brought up Alex's ex and started pointing out the things his room that had been gifts from the girl.Seeing as how I am super prone to jealousyI lashed out at him the moment we were left alone, we gave each other death galres as we exchanged insults and both of us trying to justify what were saying to one another.

I walked out of the room and stayed in his living room unti I felt that I had calmed down. I tried to talkng to him but he ignored me so I started getting rather agressive with him and next thing I know I grab him by the shirt he shoves me back I tear into his skin, and grab him by the neck he grabs my wrists I pull back and slap him twice in the fae but since I have long nails I cut up his face. He starts crying saying he doesn't want this for me, he never wanted to taint me this way.

Kinda feel bad for him since he started to pass out so I pretty much forced him into bed and changed him into his PJ's while laying himdown he started sayingt hat when he and I first got together he had already made up his mind and decided that nothing would stand in his way of keeping me hppy and by hs side, bu now he didn't know where he had gone wrong. I just stared at him and told him that this was a sign maybe we should see others but he refused my awser and jumped on me hugging me tightly, saying he didn't want to loose me, to pleae stay by his side.

I know, it's alot of drama, especially for this relationship, I didn't think I'd have so much od t, but then again when I think back to how we started . . .I guess we were kinda askin' for it.

We didn't break up.

Actually things hava been pretty mellow between us but his Mom gave him hell when she saw the mark I left him, I think they're going to scar.